Ink your name in my heart.

Save me, i'm bored.

2011-04-09T14:04:00.003+08:00

Would be staying @ home the whole day. Initial plan was to dye my hair, pack my room, pack my wardrobe. But now, i'm simply so lazy to do so. Ahhhhh ! I just want to go out, but i'm so broke now. ): Can money just drop down from the sky, pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeee?! :/

If time could pass alittle slower.

2011-04-09T01:27:00.002+08:00

I think i've really neglected this blog of mine. I only come back to update when i'm down, what a good owner i am uh. Loving the new layout very much. Shall change the url real soon when i come across one k.

How i wish time could pass alittle slower, one month had passed. Which means one month of my holidays were gone. I wasted the whole month, by not finding a properly job. ): Sad you know! So many things in my wishlist to be strike off. & i'm so broke now! & worst, i've been spending more & more on foods. I eat when i'm hungry, eat when i feel like eating! How to slim down?! How to save money?! Have not been attending training as well. I'm just so lazy for everything now. Volleyball was once my everyday wanna do thing, but i somehow lost the passion already. Die!

2more days to school re-open. New term, new subjects. Stress again! All i can say is, i really need to work super hard to score good gpa. I can't afford to slack anymore. I wanna go poly!

Aren't any better.

2011-03-25T01:03:00.004+08:00

I felt so fuckup the whole day, everything is simply not going smoothly. I felt tired, i tried, but still its either same or worst. Seriously, just fuckmylife.

I really need a place to rant so badly, but definitely not here! On the other note, happy that i've finally met my girls after almost a month. Had heart to heart talk with them. ♥

Which one?

2011-03-23T22:57:00.006+08:00

I find this baseball jackets are freaing chio.
But i really dont know which one to get. ):

Topshop? But like over my budget leh! :/

Make over.

2011-03-16T19:41:00.000+08:00

Hehehehehehehhe! A make-over for my blog. pretty!

Far away.

2010-12-28T17:34:00.002+08:00

失去的，永远都找不回来

虽然心很痛却只能说分开以后我就要远走
There's nothing more for me to say, i'm speechless.
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Gonna nua the whole day @ home. Online shopping, like eye on alot of things. Since im still jobless, i need to save really hard. I'm gonna write a list of wants on a piece of paper & stick it on my wall, so i can remind myself every morning i wake up. Hehe. I'm crazy. 3 more days, & its the end of 2010. Im not excited to countdown @ all. But i seriously hope that 2011 will be a better year. I want to be a happy girl, i want everything to go smoothly k.

Nightmares.

2010-12-16T12:00:00.002+08:00

Its been a month plus, why am i still stuck here? I've been trying really hard to get over you, but still every single words of yours, every single actions of yours still effect me so much. Sometimes i just hate myself so much, cause im just being stupid. I'm just making my life miserable. Cause you get over me, the week after we broke up. You're happy with your life, you're enjoying your life everyday. What about me?! No matter how hard i laughed, i still dont feel happy. Every night before i sleep, i will still think about it. But each time, i tell myself you're not worth it @ all. When you're happily enjoying out there, i'm alone crying @ one corner.

I've done so much for you, but you never see it @ all when we were together. You wouldnt know how hard i've tried just to please you. You wouldnt know how it feels. I've never do anything to let you down, but you never want to trust me because of your phobia. But i didnt stop trying, no matter how badly you treat me. Ended up, you're the one who decided to give up. I grant your wish. What's more do you expect from me now?.

I'll remember every single words that you told me. Yes, im a negative person. So?! That's me! In your friend's eyes, i'm always the bad person. I'm a lousy girlfriend. Its okay, cause i know i've tried. Your friend's has got no fucking rights to judge me, by what you told them or whatever shits. Cause they dont know me @ all! I havent grown up, im immature. So?! That is me, if you cant accept it, its your problem! You're the GOOD MAN, you're so perfect in a relationship, unlike me. I'm the cause of all this fucking problems! I deserve everything, i deserve to dwell on everything, i deserve for who i am today, i deserve to be unhappy everyday. I'm not as lucky as you! FUCKMYLIFE!

Seriously, you people should just keep your fucking mouth shut & keep your fucking comments to yourself, bitch! If you cant even handle your own relationship, then mind your own business! Dont be sucha busybody.

Things happen for a reason.

2010-11-22T19:57:00.005+08:00

November wasnt a good month after all. Cause lots of things happen in just a short time, but i believe everything happened for a reasons. I admit, the day when you chose to left me i was feeling terrible. Its like the end of my life, i couldnt bring myself up. I cried & cried. Friends were there for me, i really appreciate it. I locked myself up, once i was dismissed from school. I feel so depress. I thought i was strong enough to go through all this, but i was wrong.

Sigh, i dont want to emo anymore. I hope everything will be fine as soon as possible. Please. I want to bring back that smile that was always on my face. ):

#831

2010-10-09T16:10:00.000+08:00

Hehehe! I just wanna play with my bb, cause I've got nothing to do ! (:

#830

2010-08-23T12:04:00.003+08:00

Beach tournament yesterday from 10am-3pm. Nearly overslept. Met cherlyn @ admiralty & met the others @ vivo city. Overall , the it was a great one. Cause we had a great fought with our opponents. After the event, headed to wavehouse with the the girls for a shower. Seriously, we made hell lots of noise in the toilet. Singing retarded songs & screaming. Okay, obviously is only cherlyn & i. I swear i really laugh till i've got cramps. I enjoyed my day @ the beach really much though i'm so tanned now, till i looks like a cooked lobster.

Went over to chiewchin's crib for steamboat in the late evening. Ate lots of bbq food, & its so damn oily. Thanks to kevyn for putting so much butter onto our food. Haha. I suppose kevyn & i had a great time disturbing jolin with her so-called "lao-gong". Its so hilarious, i didnt know we could be that childish. (*shy!). Drank peach vodka , it tasted so yucky. I dont like it. Left her place around 6plus. It's been really really long since we last had so much fun being together.

My leg & elbow is full of abrasion, cause i'm proud to say that i dived a number of times for the ball. Hehehe!

#829

2010-08-20T23:34:00.005+08:00

Heheheh ! I like ! ♥ ♥

#828

2010-08-19T18:42:00.004+08:00

Yes, i cried. I cried badly on my way home.
Even on the train from school , a aunty came to approach me, as me if i'm alright. I dont even know if i'm alright. I swear this is the first time i cried out so badly after so many years. I was wishing you would just appear in front of me, wipe my tears away, both hands on my cheek & lending me your shoulder. I know its impossible, i stop myself from thinking. I cried & cried , that's the only thing i know how to do. I'm confused , i feel pain in my heart , i feel tired. I dont know what to do , i dont know who to turn to. I no longer know what's love , i no longer know what's happiness.

The month of july.

2010-07-21T19:07:00.003+08:00

Haven't been blogging for almost a month. & i dont really remember what i've done from the day i last blogged till now. All that i remembered was only 12 july, 13 july & not forgetting 14 july.

After months of training, we finally had our inter-ite competition on the 12th of july. That day was a so-called nightmare day for me. I was really very disappointed on how i perform that day & i couldnt even sleep @ night. Those images keep flashing through my mind & i so afraid of the next day match. Totally no confident @ all. But thanks to my 3 babygirls, who sent me those encouraging messages & my best baby who's always by my side. It really brought back my smiles. Overall, Iim still happy that we've got second. Cause we really fought hard.

School resumed on monday, lots to catch up. I wish two years would pass as soon as possible. Because i cant wait to graduate from that course. Two more days to my big day, gonna be one year older. Gonna hit the town tomorrow night, i shall enjoy myself to the max. Scream, laugh, sing to the max ! :D

Do you know ?

2010-06-24T20:24:00.003+08:00

Sometimes it's just so hard to make someone understand you.
Sometimes you will wanna let it out cause you feels very terrible inside.
Sometimes when you did your best to do things right, you'll feel sucks in return.
Sometimes when you feels like giving up, you cant bare to leave it behind.
Sometimes when you tolerate & kept quiet, you will also feel tired.

Serious, everything sucks to the max now ! I really hate it ! >:@

Lovely.♥

2010-06-11T12:13:00.002+08:00

I found this online, while browsing those lovely hard case. & i love this to the max. I want ! I want ! Hehehe ! (: But i dont know where to get in, sad sad ):

Had my module 2 test yesterday, totally no confident to even score boarder line marks. But at least after studying for like 4days, i finally understand or rather get to know something about this course. I need to buck up already, start studying during the holidays & i must ! (*hope i can do it). Received a message from one of the teammate, saying that training was cancelled.

Went ang mo kio to meet sweetheart, ate @ nebo. Seriously, i love the food there. Never get sick of it. Haha ! Played arcade awhile & we went to karate kid. Thumbs up ! Probably the best movie. The little boy is just way too cute. Haha. After the show, we played L4D for an hour. Then home sweet home. Wheee ! Gonna meet my girls tomorrow ! ♥

2010-05-22T00:55:00.004+08:00

Had been busy with school stuff lately & hang out till late night, that explains why i dont have the time to blog. Was so looking forward to thursday's training but end up coach didnt come. Had self training. Do lots of silly things & laughing over it, kinda enjoy. Haha !

I love fridays, cause every friday i dont have to attend school. So , i met baby in the afternoon. Accompanied baby to meet boss @ yew tee. Finally, i get to eat the meatball marnina from subway. Big big thankyou to baby , hehe ! ♥ Went to newurbanmale @ cineleisure to get our slippers. Saw lester, waited for his girlfriend with him & left awhile later. Baby brought me to paragon to eat new zealand natural ice-cream. Yummy !

Then we went to fish&co, for mussels garlic soup. Our favourite ! (: Baby left for work @ 7plus, i waited till 9plus. & we went to starbucks for a drink. Though we had a tiff over a small little things in the afternoon, i still enjoyed my day with you. & i realised, we've been eating the whole day. I'm going malacca in afew hours time. I'm gonna miss you very much ! ):

New environment.

2010-05-07T13:36:00.001+08:00

I started my first day of school, on tuesday. I'm really happy to say, i dont have attend school on every friday. Hehehe! I'm not use to everything. I dont understand what the teacher is teaching, i dont understand the course. & exams are just less than 4 months away.

Anyway, i went for the first training yesterday. Wasnt that bad either. But its tiring though, cause its been really long since i last work out. & alittle fitness. Training ended @ 9pm, trained back with cherlyn.

A big thankyou to my sweety who comes to school to meet me for my lunch, fetch me from school & going training with me. Thanks for the long hours of waiting. I love you much. (:

Orhche road.

2010-05-02T01:57:00.004+08:00

While waiting for baby to end work @ 313. :/

I waited for baby like 35mins, serve me right for reaching 15mins earlier. Kiasu ! When i was crossing the road, i saw baby with 10 helium balloons. Haha. & its all for me ! But end up i went home with only one big helium balloon & its super big kind. Bigger than my body. I let off 4, gave 4 to a baby boy & one flew off.

So we went to mos for lunch, followed by wisma to get my belt. Then baby's buddy came & we went to the first-to-open toy'r'us in singapore. Basically, we just went there to play. Headed to far east after that. Had drinks & cakes @ tom & toms cafe. Went heeren to meet baby's friend & we ate mac again. Ate too much today, stupid.

Good & bad.

2010-05-01T00:09:00.002+08:00

I've received two phone calls today. Should i be happy or not ?. I seriously do not know.

First call, was from the retail store that i went for interviewed quite long ago. They called me afew times before that. & today, they called to confirm with me that they will be hiring me as a part-timer. They told me about the pay & everything, which i think its quite acceptable. We hang up after awhile & 10minutes later, i received a call from ite. My interviewed for the course, is successful.

I really dont know to be happy or what. Firstly, i'm afraid that i will lose that job cause they might not want me after they know i could only work on the weekend. Secondly, i will have less time to spend with bby. & also, i need to meet new friends ): But still , i hope the first day of school will be fun.

I'm gonna get my vans real soon. I've made up my mind. Since i cant find the pink one, i'm gonna get the red one instead.

Peace. ☮

2010-04-30T00:56:00.004+08:00

Everything hasn't been good for me lately & i seriously dont wish to mention anything.

So as i mention early on , i went to the beach on tuesday with baby & friends. We stayed for like 3hour plus & we left the beach. Hehehe ! At least, i didnt get any sunburns. Intended to check out the universal studio, but end up we didnt. Cause its not fully open, so i shall wait. We took a skyride & played the luge as well. Back to vivo city for dinner & we slacked awhile @ the open space area. I'm going crazy soon. I've been searching high & low for my vans but i just couldnt find the one that i'm looking for. Why ! Sad.

I had been doing nothing lately. What's wrong with my life? Results will be out tomorrow. ):

Sweety.

2010-04-27T00:35:00.002+08:00

Met my dearest sinwei @ ang mio kio around 8plus. Played arcade for few hours & we head to the coffeeshop nearby for tomyum as our supper. Marcus came to join us awhile later. Left the place @ 11plus. Cabbed home.

Though its just afew hours, but i really did enjoy myself especially while we're playing games. Hehehe ! Gonna hit the beach tomorrow & i'm gonna check out my vans too ! Wheeee ! (:

Blackberry ! ♥

2010-04-23T16:31:00.003+08:00

I wanna own this , please ! :D

I went for the course interview yesterday with the accompanied of bby @ 10am. We reached 45minutes earlier because i'm being so kiasu & afraid i'll estimate the wrong timing. Hehehe ! Had our breakfast in school & i swear the canteen is very small. Variety of foods are very little too.

Had a fast interviewed. Took a bus to ang mio kio after that. Played 2hours of lan, & met bby's brother & the girlfriend for basketball & played card monoploy @ the void deck. Had kfc for dinner, & then homed.

Favourite.

2010-04-18T23:33:00.008+08:00

I like, i like ! ♥

Yesterday i met valerie. Hehehehe ! We went fleamarket @ pit building just right beside singapore flyers. Its like woah ! A huge crowd i swear , we've got to squeeze. But i like ! Saw three tops that really caught my eyes @ marina sqaure & city link, but i didnt buy any of it. Walked back to city link after we're back from the fleamarket, decided to buy the top from hula&co. But its sold out. Less than 2hours, you know. Sad !

Went bugis after that, bought afew items from street. Satisfied with the things i've bought. Same goes to val. I seriously cant wait for more shoppinggggggggggg ! Or maybe shopping is the only way to make me happy, & put aside all the unhappy things. Haha. (excuses) Tell me, who dont enjoy shopping uh ?! (:

Went for job hunting few days back. Filled up afew application forms, but only one called. So am going down for interview tomorrow. I hope its successful. Caught shuttle island today, i rated it 3/5.

I wish upon a star.

2010-04-16T00:10:00.003+08:00

Happy + sad = Happy yet sad.

Went back to simei ite @ about 1plus. Settled my application for my course, my last chance. Had tomyum ban mian for lunch @ cafe 1. My favourite ! ♥ Hehehehehehe ! (:

Slack @ cafe, waited for the time to reach 5:30pm for training. I seriously hate it to the max. Cause some people just dont deserve our respect. After i heard those words, i'm so desire to get into the course i chose today. Said nasty words to us , yet in the end make used of us. Power pack. You're just putting on a mask.

Happy 18th birthday, slyvester !

2010-04-06T00:46:00.004+08:00

Okay, this was suppose to be posted on 5th april. Haha.

Met kevyn, sinwei & cyrus @ ehub around 5plus followed by perry & mingyan. But 24cans of beer @ fairprice for sly as a birthday present. Its sounds kinda weird or rather a cheap gift that's because we really have got no ideas of what to buy. He dont seems to need anything, you see.

We reached his chalet around 6plus which is located @ aranda. Spent our day, gambling & talking nonsense. It seems like lucky is not on me, cause i lose one dollar ! Haha. Had our dinner followed by cake cutting. Poor sly, he's being forced to drink 20seconds of hard liquor. Starting to get bored after that & cyrus came out with a stupid idea, so we took afew pictures with stupid pose. Damn funny, everyone sat on the floor & laugh out loud.

Played poker for awhile & i lose like dont know how many times, suay to the max. Took a family photo before we left @ 11plus. Mingyan's daddy sent me back to woodlands. Heehee ! So good.

Well, overall its an enjoyable day. & finally, we get to meet up with the cliques. All thanks to sly's chalet. Hahaha. Of course, i hope he enjoy his birthday this year. (:

Picnic & kite flying ! ♥

2010-03-31T01:09:00.004+08:00

I'm super duper happy to the max today ! Met kevyn, sinwei & jethro @ vivo together with kaii at 1plus. We shopped for some snacks & drinks @ giant. We bought too much foods & there were so many leftovers in the end. Waited for nigel & he drove us to marina barrage. Found a good spot & settled down, but few minutes later it started to rain. So, we got to shift our belongings to the shelter. Eat & eat till rain stopped.

Nigel left shortly & we shifted out to the grass area. Aftermath, was kite flying. We've got no idea why our kite couldn't fly up high whereas others could. Damn sad. We tried from 4plus to 8plus if i'm not wrong. Packed up @ nine plus, & we went to play water @ the water fountain which is located @ the first level. Went city hall's macdonald for supper after that. I'm feeling so bloated now. Such a coincidence we saw kaii's brother & her girlfriend @ mac. Parted at 11plus. Chatted so much about privates, dont know which to go to. :<

Waiting for goh sinwei to tag me all the photos in facebook. Heehee ! (: Today's a tired but fun day ! ♥♥♥

Tomorrow ! (L)

2010-03-29T23:55:00.001+08:00

I cant wait for tomorrow ! (L) Wheeeeeeeeee ! ~
Picnic & kite flying ! ♥♥♥

Happy 8th birthday ! ♥

2010-03-28T23:47:00.002+08:00

Happy 8th birthday to my cute little boy ! ♥
Hope you'll be happy & stay healthy everyday ! (:

Me Want !

2010-03-25T20:26:00.004+08:00

I'm craving for hotcakes with lots of honey syrup nowwwwwwwwwwww ! ):

I met Jy @ woodlands interchange at about 11plus. Took a bus to bugis, a long journey. We chatted almost half of the journey. What else other than volleyball ? Ha. Bought afew apparels there, happy to the max ! (Y). It started pouring heavily, roamed awhile & waited for the rain to stop at the same time. Off to orchard after that. Went ion, wisma followed by far east plaza. Of course there's more to buy, but where to get moolahs? ):

Anyway, i packed my room yesterday & i saw the big birthday card that yvonne & the rest had made for me on my seventeen birthday. It had been more than a year since all of us hang out together. Everyone is just so busy with their own things. Really miss those days when we gone crazy together. Hope we'll all meet up soon, k!.

Bow ! ♥

2010-03-24T01:12:00.015+08:00

Chio?! Me want it ! ):

Flea flea flea ! ♥

2010-03-21T01:42:00.007+08:00

Clarke quay > home club > ion > wisma > cineleisure > scape youth park > far east plaza.

I'm super duper sad. Firstly, i was so looking forward for today's fleamarket yet i went home empty-handed.
Secondly, i've got no idea where to get my vans sneaker! How? D':

Okay ! Met the babes, raymond & jethro at clarke quay. Ate bak gu teh (sorry about the spelling, ha) aftermath, we chiong to the fleamarket at home club. Super small, not much stall. Took a bus to ion, went around playing names of several boutique. Walked around ion followed by wisma to kill time. Went scape youth park at 5plus, for the second fleamarket of the day. Worst ! Less than 20 stall i think ):

Off to far east plaza after that then back to woodlands with bby. Watching xia yi zhan xing fu now ! (:

Baby baby baby ohh ! :D

Triple joy !

2010-03-19T16:05:00.002+08:00

Yeayea ! Three good news ! :D

There's three different places hosting fleamarket. Which to go ?

JUSTIN BIEBER !

Baby, baby, baby oohh

2010-03-10T02:33:00.001+08:00

Should i change to tumblr ?

Lovely babies.

2010-03-09T03:01:00.002+08:00

Its 3:17am now, & i'm still awake ! (*why!)

I googled some pictures of van's authentic era & browsed through the web. This are the lovely babies that i found :

No good no good.

2010-03-08T23:49:00.004+08:00

For the past few day : ..........

Wednesday, went east coast park for cycling.
Thursday, went bedok for training.
Sunday, (yishun; city hall {accompany bby to work}; home).

That's is all i could remember. Things hasnt been going well lately, but i hope it will be fine soon (:
& as for today, met bby went down to dhoby ghaut's cube for lan, played L4D. Walked over to the cathay at 7 plus & bought tickets for ' Alice in the wonderland '. Not a very nice movie though. I prefer watching the cartoon instead (own preference).

Somehow i wonder, why are there so many hypocrites in this world. As time goes by, you could really see what kind of person they are. Time proved everything. Really detest those idiots who like to interfere in people's life. & especially those who like to act f'cking innocent in front of you, pretended to nice. Yet talked shits behind your back. Joke. Well, that particular someone, she's arent any better. I wish her well, all the best is all i can say. Ha! (*smile widely !)

Her last journey, a new world.

2010-03-03T12:55:00.002+08:00

Attended funeral yesterday. Sending aunty off to a new world. Something i felt sad & heartbreaking when i reached kranji crematorium. Is that, the one lying in the coffin was my friend's mother. What if, its my mum one day. Someone who had been taking of me for 18 years, giving me the best that she can? Someone who cared for me more than everyone else? But illness brought her away. Having this 5days 4nights of funeral, would be the last time you'll be feeling that she's still somewhere close to you. When it comes to the fifth day, you would have to lead her to a new world & she'll be gone forever.

Seeing the coffin being pushed in to burnt & it will turned out to be only ash. In just a short time, you're only left with ashes. I just feel that human life is so fragile. We cannot predict what will happen next, we dont know how many tomorrow do each of us have. & after this, i just want to cherish my family, friends & you.

Zooooooooooooooooo ! ♥

2010-02-22T00:48:00.002+08:00

Saturday :

Helped daddy to distribute flyers at dont know which part of sengkang.
Met love at punggol station & travelled to dhoby ghaut.
Dined at just asian followed by lan (L4D1 & 2).

Sunday :

Cabbed to admiralty to pick up love, & we headed to zoo.
Back to angmiokio for lan (L4D1)

Slept really late on saturday night & i couldnt get myself up from bed when we were suppose to meet at 10am. I slept back & woke up. Cabbed to admiralty to pick love & we went to the zoo. Completed almost the whole map. Only missed out afew animals cause it rained heavily ): Watched sea lion & elephant show. Got drench, cause the elephants splashed water on us. Ha! Saw new things today, something that i've never see before in my life. Not even through textbook! We saw 2 horny male goat, haha! Seriously, damn gross!

Went for a 10minutes fish spa after that, right outside the main entrance. I think i'm just wasting my money. Cause i think i did for less than 3minutes. Haha! I feel so itchy when the fishes suck my feet. Met a angmoh lady, around 20plus. She's so cute, i bring up my feet she brought up her's too. I scream she scream, i jump up she jump up. Haha ! & she kinda encourage me to stay in the water longer. Dined at kfc then we went to angmiokio for lan (L4D1) again. I think sooner or later my eye-sight will increase & increase.

I cant wait for my babes to come over for steamboat in the evening ! Heehee :D
I'm craving for the home brewed ice lemon tea from ah meng's restaurant now ! Ohmy.

When you're left, speechless.

2010-02-20T00:19:00.002+08:00

School's training, only ten players attend.
Had dinner in school with sinwei, kevyn, nigel, jackson & jethro in school. New food , tomyum seafood soup. Yum yum !. Went bedok for training aftermath, played afew matchs & get really tired after that. Training ended, took nigel's car & he dropped me at compass bus stop. & i took 161 back to woodlands.

On my way back, i thought alot. Recalled back what you've said this afternoon. I knew how heartless i was after today. I know my word hurts, yours too. At that point of time, i really hate you alot till i feel like hitting you. But i've got to admit, when you placed your palm on my face, the way you touched my cheek gently & telling me how much you love me, i was really touched. I was able to control my tears from dripping down but when that happens, i could not control & i cried out. But i know i could never forget how you've treated me. You said you want me to treat you better then you will do the same. I could really see how selfish you were, cause you dont think you've treated me badly. In fact, you think that i'm the worst girlfriend you've ever had & you wants me to treat you better than before.

Happy chinese new year.

2010-02-14T23:19:00.003+08:00

Woke up at 10plus, had steamboat with family then we went over to grandmother's crib followed by great-grandmother's, granny's & uncle's crib. Get to play wii with jovan. I think i've not seen him for months cause he had grown up , & i dont even know he's turning 7 this year. Anyway, i really enjoyed playing with him. & i didnt know that playing wii can be so tiring. Ha!

How can year 2010 be? Chinese new year & valentine's day clashed on the same day, feeling so sad & disappointed over some matters, new year not like new year, angpow money getting lesser & lesser each year! Everything turned out to be so sucky. I just cant wait for all the shops to be opened so that i can go for a great shopping.

♥

2010-02-12T01:05:00.002+08:00

Today : Spell the word great !

Went bugis with mummy in the afternoon.
Left @ 7plus & went over to town to meet ♥.
Went to fep for hongkong milk tea plus hot & spicy fishball for dinner. Yum !
Slack outside takashimaya, played, laughed & drink (soft drink,ha).
Home sweet home.

I'm so happy today, maybe its because of the card. Though its just a simple card, but to me it meant alot. After months of unhappiness we've gone through, i really dont expect you to pen down those words. But still, you made it happened. Thankyousomuch ! (:

Shopping.

2010-02-09T20:46:00.005+08:00

Hate every year, hate today, hate everyday.

Yesterday:

Met kevyn, sinwei, cc & wayne @ bugis in the afternoon.
Shopped around bugis & i managed to bring something home :)
Left bugis @ 8plus, went over to 313 then wisma.
Overall, i got myself a top, acid wash shorts, navy bow pin. Much love!

Wah ! My hair suddenly become so long :)

I was actually plucking her leg hair (*wink!)

Overall, i had a great day with my babes. Though my day didnt start off well & didnt end well. But still this three ladies made my day, especially plucking sinwei's & kevyn's leg hair. Heehee ! :D

What a day !

2010-02-08T00:59:00.005+08:00

Match yesterday, dont wish to talk about it.

Seriously first time in my life i met someone like him. Totally cannot make it. Hate you very much !
Out to bugis in the evening. Same goes to tomorrow with the babes & maybe wayne tan.

Life's a bitch.

2010-02-05T18:21:00.016+08:00

Ranting & ranting. See how good my life can be.
Sick & tired of things happening in me.
All i wish for is just a happy & simple life, no matter who i'm with.
But disappointment never fails to come by, it breaks my heart.
Waiting for your messages wasnt waiting for surprise nor happy anymore.
As days goes by, i realised i'm running away from reality.

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Thought & thought. I dont know why i've got the sudden urge go get a bow ring tattoo on my finger & a big damond on my wrist! & also blonde my hair. Heehee. Match at simei tomorrow, i cant wait. :)

Beach Fiesta.

2010-02-01T11:16:00.002+08:00

Beach fiesta on saturday. Reached beach around 8.45am, waited untill 2plus in the afternoon then we get to play our first match. Played like shit for all matches, but we managed to get a bronze medal. Left beach around 6plus, dined at subway then we slacked till 10plus.

Why?

2010-01-28T13:25:00.002+08:00

Results still not out yet. Why?
Going bedok for training later on.
Why so sianzxzxzxzxzxzxzxzxzxzxz !

Looking forward.

2010-01-23T00:14:00.001+08:00

Exactly 7days to beach competition. I can't wait for 30th january to arrive ! (:

Alive.

2010-01-21T00:22:00.001+08:00

I'm not dead yet. Had been going down for training lately. So, ya. I'm busy ! :)

You once made me the happiest person in the world.

2010-01-19T00:00:00.014+08:00

I just feel like saying this out, i feel being treated like a replacement of someone special in your heart each time you mentioned her out of nowhere. You used to compare us that's why i hate it even more.

& this is mine:
5years back, on 25th of may. I get to know someone who really changed my character. Someone who i wish i could met earlier. Someone who changed me into a cheerful person. Someone who made me grow up. We've been through lots of obstacles then we finally get together. Just for afew months, i could really feel his strong love.

We hardly get to meet one another. So we could only contact each other through smses & phone calls. We used to watch phua chu kang, living with lydia, mr bean & under one roof while talking on the phone. & when we could get to meet up is only friday. Because when i'm free, he would be having tuitions, school trainings, outside trainings & piano lesson. His only free time was my trainings days. So every friday, he would wait for me outside my classroom till i'm dismissed. & we would walk to his house, he get changed then we'll walked to places near my house cause he's tuition center is also near my house.

We would sit down & have a good chat, times when i could meet him always passed so fast till i cant bare to bid goodbye. Cause i feel so protected so secured with him. There's once when i was with him, it rains heavily in a sudden. He quicked get an umbrella from i-dont-know who & he shelter me with it. He's almost giving me the umbrella & he was drained. & he said cause he dont want me to be caught in the rain & fall sick.

At that moment, my heart really melted & i just feel like crying out. Its tears of joy, he made me feel so blissful. He showed me how a guy should dote his girlfriend. When i'm down, just a message from him could really made my day. I felt so grateful to god, because he was the greatest present i recieved on my birthday. I've got someone who treats me real good. Someone who has never raise his voice at me. Someone who has never get mad at me. Someone who has never hurt me physically & mentally. Someone who will never make/say words to disgrace me in front of others. Someone who changed me to be able to put on a smile everyday.

The day when we broke up, its just like the end of my life. I couldnt accept it, i took me years. I cried & cried all nights. Even during lessons, i would stared at something & unknowingly my tears will flow down my cheeks. He's the motivation. He's the reason why i attended school everyday. From that day , i know i've got to be strong, smile & shows people that i'm alright. Act like nothing happens when people mentions about him in front of me.

下一站，幸福

2010-01-17T23:37:00.003+08:00

This is also one of the best show i've watched other than 放羊的星星 & 樱野3加1. I totally love this show alot, much love !

I know i slow kay, only at episode 3. I started watching this yesterday & i cant wait to finish the entire the show. I dont know why. I really admire guys who dote girls. I dont mean serving them like a princess, kneel down tied shoelaces for them or what. Just simple things like, protecting them from danger. Protect them from being hurt instead of you hurting them.

Every saturday 9pm, channel u.
I thought this show is as lame as 换换爱 & 恶作剧之吻. & i dont really like 王心凌 in the first place. But i tried to watch it when i was feeling really bored & my impression for this show really changed. Haha. So ya , i wanna watch both of this show desperately. Heehee :)

My 'lucky' day.

2010-01-14T10:31:00.009+08:00

Head down to bedok for training yesterday, enjoyed. Bought food from pasa malam then bused back to woodlands. I dont wish to elaborate any further, i will just label yesterday as my 'luckiest' day ever cause i fucking got a fine & there goes my 50dollars. (*Heartpain.) Mummy said its okay. Dont make the same mistake again, take it as a lesson learnt. & she's even willing to pay for me, but i didnt take her money.

I think alot last night. & i realised nothings more important than my mother. Ever since primary school, when i need someone to talk to or any advices she's always there for me. She's someone who had never make me feel that i'm alone. She taught me to never trust anyone easily not even someone who's very closed to me. & of course there's more, probably about personal stuff.

See how foolish i am.

2010-01-07T04:40:00.008+08:00

Its 4:40am now & i'm still on the phone with you. We talked for about 2 1/2hours. & you fell asleep. I dont dare to hang up the phone, cause i was afraid you might wake up again anytime. & when you need me, i wasnt there for you. Even tough i was having headache & feels like sleeping, i dont dare to say out.

I tried findings topic to talk when you didnt start any. I tried findings news from google, then talk to you about zoo; night safari; jurong bird park; horse riding; ice-skating; snow city; science centre; singapore flyers; escape theme park; ntuc member; nebo member. I was trying really hard to come out with all this shits. & you should know, since the day you knew me i've never got so much things to talk about.

When i was still talking on the phone with you, my tears dripped down. You said i was stupid, you said things that sounds as if i didnt try to find topic to talk about & just being quiet. You didnt see my efforts at all. You dont even know that i've been trying very hard. & also trying very hard to control my temper when you lose yours. I admit, for that few minutes i couldnt control myself & i lose my temper on you. So i said sorry, & started a new topic.

You'll have to wake up in 35mins time to prepare for school. I was thinking, when your alarm rang & you heard me saying good morning to you & knowing that i didnt hang up the phone even when you fell asleep, will you apprecriate me?

Somehow i wish you will, but maybe you wont.

Random

2010-01-06T23:45:00.007+08:00

Hey, if you could see i did some changes to my layout. Haha. Because i've got nothing better to do. So i decided to play with my blogskin. I got homed like 2hours ago, met babylove at yishun. Dined at xin wang hong kong cafe, the curry chicken rice is damn yummy i swear. Talk about that, i feel alittle hungry now :/

Aftermath,

We did sand art together, & i think we spent about an hour doing it. Heehee, but i like it :D

Then we spent 20dollars at arcade, i think its alot. But...., as long as we both enjoyed right ? ^^

I cant wait ,

8th of January ; this friday to arrive, cause there's training at simei !

9th of January ; this saturday to arrive, beach beach with babes !

Another 9 more months to arrive, a blackberry or iphone ! :)

Sometimes,

I just cant stop myself from thinking, say i'm being paranoid or what. I would label myself as oversensitive (maybe). Really feel so helpless now, nobody could help me. Yes, you may think that i'm not even trying. That's your thinking. I cant change it. But in fact, i did try my best. I know its never enough. No matter how hard i try, i could never ammend the mistake i've done. Living in this world is never fair !

BUT STILL, I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH ! MORE THAN YOU CAN NEVER IMAGINE ! ♥

Silence.

2010-01-05T01:34:00.004+08:00

Just hang up, i suddenly felt so tired.
I dont know what else you want/expect from me. I feel so sad, cause no matter how hard i tried, you will never get satisfied. I know its my fault, i like to keep problems to myself. But i did try opening my heart to you, it just dont work. Whenever i tell you things, it will always become an arguement or quarrels.

- For this moment, i remain silence. I cant stop my tears from flowing down. I need a shoulder to lie on. I need someone who i can turn to, someone who can hear me out. Someone to wipe my tears & tell me ' Dont cry, be strong. I'll never let you fall, cause i'll be right behind you pushing you up '. Someone to cherish & appreciate me. Appreciate everything that i've done for him and not demoralizing me by saying i'm not a good girlfriend, i'm not this i'm not that.

- I'm sorry, i really do love you alot.

Takecare, bye ! <3

Volleyball Chalet.

2010-01-04T23:29:00.006+08:00

That night when we drank, played & laughed was the best chalet i've ever been to. I really enjoyed myself. Especially that silly game that don suggested. Say 'fuck you' after every sentence. Haha.

My heart beats for you, sweetheart.

2010-01-03T02:00:00.006+08:00

I guess you are asleep now, i wanted to text you but something held me back.
Just now i wanted to give you a hug & tell you how much i love you but i just couldnt do it.
Its just another day. People always says "Tomorrow will be a better day",
Woke up happily in the morning, hoping everyday will starts happily & ends happily.
But it didnt, why do we have to quarrels & gets angry over small matters?
I know, i'm becoming from bad to worst but it takes two hands to clap.
I'm controlling my temper, am trying very hard now !
I dont know why , i just feel like crying & screaming out at times.
I feel that i'm under alot of pressure now! Why? Why me ?! FML

Goodbye 2009 , Hello to 2010 ♥

2010-01-02T01:13:00.007+08:00

I'm finaly back home, i miss my bed seriously. Where should i start? Lots of things happened during december, even till the last day of 2009. I dont wish to elaborate any further, since its already 2010. I wish i can start afresh & everything will go on smoothly for me & of course everyone out there.

Had sakae for dinner with baby then we went for a movie ; alvin & the chipmunks 2. I love it very much, because the chipmunks were so cute. Hehe ! :>

Since this is my first entry for 2010 , i pampered my blog with a new skin & as welll as my twitter. Haha. Pardon me for being lame, cause i'm so bored now. Should i remove my tagboard?

I want a better you.....

2009-12-26T21:22:00.004+08:00

No words can describe my feeling.
I just feel like crying, cry from day to night.
I feel like sitting on a bench along a quiet beach.
Tired of talking, nothing can makes me put on a smile.

I wish you'll always be there to hear me out.
I wish you'll always be there to cheer me up, encourage me.
I wish i could always feels that you're right behind me.
I wish you would understand my heart one day,
& know the reasons behind those things i've done for you.
I wish we could celebrate every happy occasion together.
I wish our rainy days will shorten & happy moments to be countless.

-Baby, i want a better you.
you're the only one in my ♥, i love you <3
I just wanna hold you tight, i dont wish to let go.

Bon Voyage!

2009-12-20T21:50:00.002+08:00

Sent sinwei off, fly fly fly to bangkok. Hope she enjoys herself there & we're gonna miss her for sure.
Cabbed to hougang, then bused to sheng shiong. Damn fun, eat & laugh. Headed town with kevyn then went to st.james power station. Fleamarket, i like though i only got myself 2 apperals. Had been sneezing non-stop & feeling cold since yesterday night ):

Baby, i miss you!

Hotcakes ! ♥

2009-12-18T17:13:00.003+08:00

Yea. Am back from thailand, like 4days ago. Was so lazy to come online, but for now i've got no choice. Cause i heard, final results will be out today, so i need to check in online. Pray hard please, i really hope i could get to higher nitec. At least 2 more years for me to play volleyball.

Went out with jy yesterday, spent so much but glad that we both enjoyed. Hehehe.
Met sweetheart in the morning, yea! For hotcakes! Yummy, very very happy! :D

My best baby ( :

2009-12-07T22:25:00.007+08:00

Just came back from dinner. One word ='enjoyed'. & i'm so happy. Heehee!
Met daddy baby for dinner at mac, then when over to night market. Played the gun machine thing, finally we got enough points to change a baby minnie. Very very happy okay ! My baby mickey has a meimei to accompany him while i'm away. & the both of them had something in common, their trade mark 'big head'. Haha. Head bigger than body which makes them a siblings. Then daddy baby sent me home. Thankyou very much, b ! ♥♥♥♥

Less than 10 hours i'm leaving singapore, i'm gonna miss baby & babes (sinwei, kevyn, cc) ! D':

Bad romance.

2009-12-07T15:22:00.007+08:00

I'm feeling so sad now. Cause i didnt manage to wake up at 8plus to send my dog off to pet's hotel despite my mum calling me number of times. I was still in my dreams though i heard my mum calling me, but i just cant wake up. I didnt even give him a hug, i miss him D': I could only get to see him in 8days time.

Had been repeating my playlist ever since i woke up this morning. My mind is full of 'bad romance'. Watched afew video on youtube as well. Gagaa is driving me crazy ! Ohya. I need to buy lots of sweets, so that i can consume them on the plane. Hehe.

Happy birthday to you. (:

2009-12-06T22:31:00.003+08:00

Quarrelled afew times on your birthday night. But i'm just glad that you managed to blow your candles happily before 12am. Thank me for the yummy cake & the birthday song i sang for you. Hehe. Wheeeee! :D Anyway , somebody so idiot. Say something so hurting on your birthday! I hate you!

Eat & eat the whole day. Like a fat pig! D: Pepperlunch, long john, ice-cream at iluma. Played arcade, kinda sad cause i didnt get the puppy soft toy from the catcher machine while a couple got it. Haha. But they were damn cute. Caught a movie after that, watched case 39. Scare the hell outta me. Had dinner together & have a good chat awhile. Then baby sent me home. Like finally okay!

2 more days, i'm flying. Miki going to pet's hotel tomorrow morning. Sibei sad ! D:

Happy Day.

2009-12-04T23:11:00.007+08:00

Meet baby at 12plus at jurong east platform & we trained down to boon lay together. Walked around & we went for lunch at long john silver. Haha. Almost eating it everyday. But it still taste so yummy. Hehe.

I'm just so happy today, cause we get to decorate the birthday cake together. Hehe. Happy happy, you know! :D But it was meant to be a surprise, & i thought of decorating it myself without letting baby know. Stupid idiot, made me say out. Anyway, i felt like a monster now. I've been eating more than usual. How? Baby accompanied me to eat almond longan & bought shaker fries for me :D Much loves ♥

Babylove, its your birthday in less than an hour time. I cant wait to blow the candles & eat the cake that we had decorated together. Hehe. See you tomorrow ! (:

New Moon.

2009-12-04T00:05:00.004+08:00

Its 12:05am now. I'm back from movie, caught new moon with baby. I went to buy tickets at 4plus as tickets were selling fast. Baby came to meet me after school then went for a hair cut at a dont know what salon that which starts with J something. Haha! Cool hairstyle, handsome liao loh! No more ahbeng look. I like! ^^

Overall, the movie was worth watching. I like, i like! Everyone became so handsome & pretty. Hehe! :D Tomorrow, i hope we'll be able to decorate a cake together. I love you to the max, baby! ♥
& its just one more day to your big day, i hope we can spend time happily together(:

Disappointment.

2009-12-03T13:23:00.005+08:00

Sometimes i just wonder, would you/have you ever apprieciate what i've done for you. I'm not wanting to claim credits or say who's doing more for who. But sometimes you just dont show you appreciate it at all.

But there's something to make me happy about = MY BLOGSKIN ! Yippe! Finally able to change the background in less than an hour. The codes keep giving problem, ya'know. So satisfied now :D

Enjoyable Day !

2009-12-03T00:30:00.009+08:00

Headed bedok for training yesterday, it rained when we reached court. But still continued to play under the rain. Had lots of fun playing & fooling around. Haha. We laughed more than exercise. Went interchange for hokkien mee after training , yummy ! :D

2more days to your big big day , how?! I dont know how i want to celebrate with you ! Big headache ! Why so fast , you tell me?!

Anyway, we watched twilight, the tomb & aunty lucy today . ' So embarassing!'
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It's 2:26am now , & i'm not in bed yet. I just changed my blogskin, is this better? & i'm using pop out tagboard under links. Hmm. Need to wake baby up at 5:30am for school then i can have my sleep till afternoon. Gonna tuck myself to sleep soon. Gd'night!

Yahoo Event !

2009-11-30T11:24:00.001+08:00

Went to work for yahoo event on saturday at singapore's flyer. Met kevyn at sengkang then followed by sinwei. Overall, i enjoyed myself though sinwei & i had to stand under the hot sun. Able to get adidas merchandise for sweetheart. Met up after my work & went chinatown for almond longan (: Cabbed back to woodlands & i got sweetheart a metal case.

Sweetheart had been super good to me for the past few days, love you to the max! ♥
But you're being such a big idiot for not telling me what you want for your birthday!

To my babes: I'm really sorry for not being able to join you girls for beach, yesterday.

Shopping ! ♥

2009-11-27T01:12:00.004+08:00

Tuesday : Heeren , fareast plaza , bedok (training) , homed.
Wednesday : Bugis , admiralty , homed.
Thursday : Bugis , fareast plaza, admiralty homed.

Met kevyn & chiewchin at town on tuesday. Shopped around & we headed down to bedok for training. After weeks, finally i get to feel a volleyball. ^^ After training, slacked awhile & then went home.

Shopping with my lovely babes on wednesday. Gossip, laughed, eat, talk cork! I really enjoyed myself though its only afew hours. I even got myself a bag. Very happy ! :D Out with jingyee & kaii yesterday, to bugis then fast east. Enjoyed too :D

What hurts the most?

2009-11-24T12:54:00.004+08:00

Never know loving someone can be so difficult.
Never know you would change so much in just afew months, so scary.
Never know so many things would come in the same time.
Never know why our happiest moment are shorter than rainy days.
Never know my heart would ache so much each time you used those words on me.

What comes around goes around.
I've got to blame myself for all this , cause that's how i treat people in the past.

Finally after 2 months.

2009-11-23T11:18:00.005+08:00

I'm glad to say finally 2 months had passed. Which means attachment is officially over. I just cant wait to enjoy myself to the max before results are out that's when i'll start to get worry. & since attachment is over, i hope everything will go on smoothly for us. ♥

The pain is killing me.

2009-11-08T01:05:00.006+08:00

Heartache, i'm really am. How i wish i was strong enough to never let my tears drip down. How i wish i am cheerful enough to never be sad. I dont know what have i done wrong, to deserve this kind of treatment. I never had this kind of feeling before, until i really feel like giving up on myself. I hate to put on a smile & joke with others when i'm not happy at all. I hate to lock myself in my room & cry at one corner. I hate to keep everything to myself. I hate myself for being so soft-hearted. Always forgive so easily whenever you starts your sweet talk.

You asked me what do i expect from you, i know i've got alot to say but something is stopping me from saying. I just hope there's one day you would really listen to what i have to say & never argue. But i know that's impossible. I dont know how much i stand in your heart, i dont wish to guess it anymore. The more i wanna lead a happy life with you, the more disappointment i will get. Those words that you've used on me, they are so hard to be deleted.

Each time i saw lovely couples in the shop, you never know how envy i was. You told me, you are meeting her for lunch/dinner. & you said you will try to fetch me from work. After that you said most likely you are fetching me. But what happens in the end? You went drinking with her & you said you're not fetching me already. & this was the second time not meeting me because of her. I kept quiet, i dont have the courage to say it out. Like what you said, i'm creating problems. So i choose to keep quiet & pretend like a dumb fuck.

You've never try putting yourself in my shoes & think how i would feel. All you will do, was to blame me for everything.

Hello .

2009-11-05T14:44:00.003+08:00

In school now , rushing my report & powerpoint slides. Meeting pork for training.
Air pork , faster roll to school now ! I'm waiting for you to eat tomyum ban mian together ! :D

Goodbye.

2009-11-02T22:54:00.003+08:00

Its been really long since i last signed-in to blogger. Attachment is still going on , few more weeks to go & i'll get to relax & enjoy myself & of course money rolling in. Recieved elaine's message in the afternoon , she told hafiz passed away. No one knows what exactly happen. Thinking back, all the funs we had in class when we were 12 years old. I feel sad )': Rest in peace, hafiz.

Ups & Down.

2009-10-07T23:14:00.008+08:00

Dad says since its my off day , & we havent get to celebrate his birthday , he decided to bring us to a thai restaurant. I love the place , cause i get to listen to nice nice song while i'm eating. When i heard that song " You are not alone by micheal jackson", alot of things came across my mind.

I'm very worried about my dog. I'm afraid he will leave me anytime. I hope you are by my side, but i know that's impossible. I saw my result , i'm disappointed or rather sad. I texted you once i get to know my result. Hoping you will say something to encourage/console me but you replied 'Hmmm. Okay." Only after awhile then you said jiayou ): i miss you very much , i wonder if you miss me.

- I want a big hug now , & i hope to hear this :
' Silly girl , dont worry ! No matter what i'll be right behind you'

Very Tired.

2009-10-03T23:47:00.005+08:00

Worked for 2 days & its my off day tomorrow ! Yesterday afternoon , i told chiewchin i missed kevyn & i havent seen her ever since our attachment started. Around 7.30pm , i saw her walking into our shop. I was surprised & of course happy too! Haha. Laughed & chatted awhile. After work, went to meet b for mac.

Today damn funny, chiewchin bang onto the wall. I cant stop myself from laughing, i even feel like sitting on the floor & laugh. Supervisor ask me not to laugh if not later she cry. But end up she also laughed. Chatted with her throughout the whole day. Supervisor kept stopping us from talking :/

I'm not good in words but i just wanna see this two girls smile like they always did.

EU MAMA , dont worry okay ! Nothing is gonna happen. Everything will go smoothly for you

GOH SINWEI ! Cheerup too ! Siao char bor ! :D

ATTACHMENT !

2009-09-30T23:19:00.007+08:00

I'm back from work ! Daddy went down to pack hokkien mee for me immediately . Ass ! Like finally. 12 hours pass so slow. Today's the third of work , chiewchin's off day so i'm working alone )': I dont like working life , really hate it ! I want to go back school to study ! Yes , study ! My shoulder & my feet hurts , like it will break anytime. But anyway , i 'm quite happy cause i managed to get off day tomorrow. & its daddy's birthday ! Which means i can celebrate with him. & i'm looking forward to this coming sunday , because its another off day. & i'll be able to meet b. ♥ :D

Next week shall be the most torturing day , cause i cant meet b )': If only i dont have any attachment ! Had a dream last night , rather disgusting. I think i was at home & i dont know why there's a cat in my house where my family & i hate cats alot. I was sitting on the sofa, & the cat kept running towards me. It was trying to bite me with its sharp teeth. Then i broke the cat's teeth. My mum broke the other one. Haha. Like abusing.

K bye ! Gonna eat my hokkien mee & wait for b's message !

- I miss you , baby ! <3

2009-09-27T23:02:00.003+08:00

ATTACHMENT TOMORROW !

All the best , UR0901L . Might be moving over to onsugar.

Phobia 2 !

2009-09-26T22:49:00.005+08:00

Went for training on thursday & friday. I had fun , cause this might be the last time we are going training together before attachment starts. Out with kaii , sinwei , jet , kevyn , nigel & sherwin today. Caught phobia 2 at cineleisure. Shocking scene , pity scene . Well , overall a new movie.

Attachment on 28th september , which is 2 more days. Why so fast ? I'm afraid i cant wake up early. I'm afraid i cant reach on time. 5days per week all full shift , i think i'm going die if i dont get to enjoy myself during work. No training , no shopping ! How sad D: Probably wont even get a chance to celebrate daddy's birthday with him. But just 2months , & i will be able to enjoy myself in bangkok. Wheeeee ! I cant wait. Plus my 2 months pay ! ^^

Equals to zero.

2009-09-23T22:53:00.005+08:00

I dont know why. I got the urge to blog in a sudden but when i've logged into the page , my mind is in a total blank. Lots of things came across my mind. So much things i wanted to say , but. To who ? I dont know what is happening now. I dont know , i dont know ! So much of ' i dont know '. I always ask myself why cause i wanted to get the answer for everything so badly. But i always get nothing. I dont understand. Dont understand at all.

5 more days to attachment. I just want to enjoy myself & be happy for the last 5 days.

- I hestitate.

Steamboat.

2009-09-22T12:22:00.007+08:00

Had steamboat yesterday at bugis with kaii , kevyn , nigel , sherwin , sinwei , chiewchin & jet.
Felt so boated after that . Get to eat big big crab ! ^^ Went for sheesha after that , left there at 11plus. Bused to yishun , then cab home. Reach home around 1plus.

Training later. Feeling so troubled now , but i dont know what is it about ):

A day out with love ones.

2009-09-15T14:24:00.008+08:00

City link > Marina Square > Bugis Street > Junction > Cineleisure > Wisma > Far East Plaza

Met princess(s) in the afternoon , accompanied chiewchin to get her form at charles & keith. Marina to get sinwei's shoes changed. Cabbed to bugis after that , behaving like a fool in the cab. Marcus & lawerence came to join us after that . Parted with lawerenc & chiewchin & we went down to orchard.

Bought a flip flop together with sinwei at newurbanmale . (Insert smile) Joke of the day ; bird shit ! Something happened when we were on our way to wisma . Made me & sinwei laugh like an idiot . Ha ! Kevyn lee . Kaii joined us in the late evening . Well , i enjoyed my day laughing with them. & talking all sorts of nonsenses.

Yesterday , Sentosa !

2009-09-13T10:20:00.005+08:00

Met up with chiewchin , sinwei , jason & jet around 11plus . Had breakfast at subway until 11plus & saw sherwin & nigel . Went in together , put our belongings down & off to play . Mingyen , perry , kevyn & kaii came to join us later. Played volleyball & soaked inside the sea water .

Left there around 6plus , went for dinner & slack till 10:30pm . & home sweet home (:
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Jurong east > Suntec > Pizza Hut > Sheesha > Drink Beer > Bugis Street > Home.

Met stupig at jurong east , wasted so much on deciding where to go . Head to suntec , was suppose to shop but end up had a meal at pizza hut and left the place after that . Went over to bugis for sheesha, drank & played game . Like fun only. Stayed there for like 2hours , then went to bugis street for a walk. When we just board the bus , pig realise we didnt collect back the ic . So we alight & run back to the place. Sweat like pig only (: Overall , i enjoyed my day with pig ! (: ♥

Meeting princess(s) for shopping tomorrow . Yea ! I cant wait . Few more hours to go , quick ! :D

♥ UR0901L

2009-09-11T12:53:00.004+08:00

How fast can 8 months be ?
I gonna miss all the funs we had (:

Hypocrites

2009-09-07T23:34:00.002+08:00

Seriously , why behave in those ways ?
Think before saying , dont try to twist your words after that.
Putting blames on other people , like fun only.
Dont treat us like a bunch of idiots , we'll see who's at the losing end.

Busy like a bee.

2009-09-03T13:46:00.012+08:00

Overdued pictures :/
Half day on monday , dismissed at 11 . Headed to SIA club with sherwin , kevyn , sinwei , nigel & kaii . Was suppose to study but we end up going for gym & swimming . Haha ! I've got hell lots of fun with them . Laugh & laugh like mad with kevyn when we were at the swimming pool . Swam until 6plus , bathed & studied for awhile . Headed to bedok interchange for late dinner .

Went johor on tuesday for shopping then went for training at bedok . Same routine everyday , finally beg ca is over . Last exam on 9th september . One last exam , & i can enjoy my holiday ^^

Wouldnt be the same .

2009-08-28T20:40:00.009+08:00

Breaking down D':

More than a zillion steps behind .

2009-08-24T20:35:00.007+08:00

Chiewchin's 17th birthday celebration in advance !

Saturday , met princess(s) ; jethro ; lawerence & perry at amk pool centre around 6 together with kaii . Left the place after awhile , & went over to broadway plaza's kbox (if i'm not wrong). Sang so much & of course all the shouting that makes me & kevyn so high . Heheh ! Sly came later . Played 007 until i became so sot so high , drink until i got drunk. Stayed there from 7pm to 3am.

Vomit some disgusting shits out . Stayed over at chiewchin's place , slept & woke up number of times . Went home at night . Having on & off headaches .

Once again :
Happy Birthday , Eu Chiew Chin !
Hope you enjoyed yourself ya , Lurb lurb you always ! ^^

One after another

2009-08-22T00:03:00.002+08:00

Monday : Perry sim's birthday . We bought 2 slices of cake for him (:
Tuesday : Went bedok for training after school .
Wednesday : ( i cant remember ) :/
Thursday : School bazaar .Earn some profit .
Friday : School , school , school & school !

Tomorrow will be celebrating chiewchin's birthday in advance , & then staying over at her place .

For once , i felt so blissful

2009-08-17T17:53:00.009+08:00

I had a dream last night . A dream that i've never dreamt before .Heheh ! I felt so blissful in my dream , that makes me dont feel like waking up . Its like a fairytales , i felt like capturing every moment with him (though i dont know who's that guy) . Thinking of that really made my day !

Felt so tired in school , staring at the computer makes me feel like sleeping . Played the soccer thingy (i dont what is it called) with kevyn , she made me laugh like mad . Billiard after that , kevyn = would label as the joker of the day . She never fails to be the joker everyday , & always claims that we are making her laugh when she's the one who make us laugh non-stop .

The smile behind every story (:

2009-08-15T23:24:00.010+08:00

Wooooo ! Finally blogger is back to normal , yea ! :D
Headed to school yesterday , role-play script handed in . An hour talk after school by polar (-.-)
Rushed back home to change & head to chiewchin's place . Touched on our project & volleyed awhile . Had lots of fun , trying to push one another down the bed ! ^^

I always have this kinda thinking running through my mind , i wish/want to foresee my future & even my next life . If something bad gonna happen soon , i can try to prevent it . Even though i know i cant , i'll still try my best . But for sure , i dont want to be like how i am now . & never want to meet someone like me . Cause i think i dont deserve any good .

I felt so stressed recently , i wonder how long will it takes for everything to be alright . Or rather , i'm the one causing all this unhappiness ? What has to be done to solve all this things ? & how to prevent from things happening again ? When can i be happy for one whole month , without being angry/sad/having those stupid thoughts ? I'm sick & tired of being a human being , really !

I want to feel the greatest pain )':

Dont understand !

2009-08-13T21:10:00.004+08:00

Everything came at one go , i cant take it .
School had been fun lately . I think i'm just going to school to have fun :/
Because i wanna be happy & enjoy my day . Because i want each day to be meaningful.
Anyway , back to school stuff . Sbm's presentation tomorrow . Report , role-play script , powerpoint slide all to be handed in tomorrow . I dont even think i'll sleep tonight . Stupid pimples , dark circles & eyebags ! Cui ): I feel that my head is exploding soon :O

Random : I'm craving for sticky sweets . Heheh ! Yummy ! :D

Happy 17th Birthday , Kevyn Lee ! ♥

2009-08-03T22:17:00.001+08:00

Its 11th day after my birthday , & today its kevyn's (:
To me it seems like a month had passed , although its only as short as 11 days .
Anyway , i just hope kevyn had a wonderful time celebrating with her friends , & sorry for not being able to have a proper meal with you . But of course , there'll be a belated :D

Double yeah ! Powerpoint project handed in & beg grooming test is over . Next is IA ! (*Sigh !)
I'm down with flu & cough , stupid ! Anyway , daddy told me regarding an idiot online . He's name is sherwin , (haha) from dont know what headquarter . He've been sending numbers of emails to my dad as well as his friends . Saying that , a man had just passed away . With no close ones / family , he has an amount of money to be claim ($200 million) . Eh , cork sia . & then he claims that he sells branded bags , he will only take the order if you purchase at least 3thousands dollar . After you paid him , he'll tells you to contact him online (by mails) whereby , he already mia .

Hectic Week !

2009-07-30T21:55:00.003+08:00

Yesterday : Pol-ite match aganist republic poly .

Nafa test today & pol-ite match tomorrow . Hope i'll play better than yesterday :/
Had been rushing for projects lately , its really giving us a big headache .

The up comings :
- Starting searching for a suitable company/shop for IA
- 3 August , princess kevyn's birthday ! :D
- 3 August , hand up IA form & beg grooming test .
- More & more exams coming up . (*faint!)

Cafe 1 for dinner then headed back to woodlands . Met vonny under my block , & she passed me a big big card that they've made as a team . Well , i appreciate it . Cause its somethings that you cant even buy with money so does our friendship. & every little note they wrote were sweet . A big thankyou to : Qianwen , Yvonne , Chinyee , Wanyi , Serene , Jojo & Wt ! ♥ I'm just so grateful to have you girls as my closest ones . Those times when i really need someone to talk to , you girls never fails to be there for me especially , yvonne (best girlfriend). When i'm down because of certain reasons , you girls never fails to be there to support & encourage me . Thankyou , thankyou & thankyou ! I ♥ QYCWSJ ! :D (my parents said , the card is unique & nice)

Sometimes , i wonder why

2009-07-25T17:57:00.019+08:00

On wednesday night , conference with princess(s) .
& i dont know why we suddenly came across this topic , why do human being have feelings (?)
Sometimes i feel that being a human , having those feelings are rather tiring .
Every single things that came by can make us feel happy & yet sad .
Haha . I dont know why , i'm just so into this topic :/

I wanna watch my lucky star , though i've watched it 2 years ago . Serenetan should know how addicted i am towards this show & how crazy i can go for the main actor . Everytime i saw her , i never fails to talk to her about every episode . I can be very engross in watching , until i teared (: I'm super sad , i lost the stickers & poster that she bought for me ! )': & they are not avaliable in singapore ! Ahhhhhhhhhh ! D: Okay , i dont know what happen to me . Yesterday night when i was showering , a small hard plastic thingy went into my eye . I rubbed it , trying to dig out that small bloody plastic until my eyeball is red . Still managed to get in out , but i feel uncomfortable because i cant see clearly , like one side is blurred . But i'm alright now , after my beauty sleep . Heheh ! :D

I wish time will for me

2009-07-23T00:14:00.011+08:00

Monday : Pol-ite match against ngee ann poly .
Today : Pol-ite match against temasek poly .
Thursday ; tomorrow : Combine training at bishan campus .

I played so badly for all matches , i seriously thinks that i totally sucks in volleyball .
Must i still wanna play well , not giving up . Never okayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy ! :D
Anyway , i'm finally 17 today . Happy yet sad ! Sad because i feel old . Happy because i met 4 lovely friends in 2009 , who i really love & cherish . { kevyn ; sinwei , chiewchin , kaii } Although i always disturb them , but they should know i still love them always , right ? :D ♥
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I'm back from training , time now is 11:19pm . In less than an hour , will be goh sinwei's birthday . Scared right ? Heheh ! :D Headed for training in the evening at bishan . I just felt happy the throughout the whole day . Even during training , the feel is just so right ! (:

After training ended , sinwei & i were being surprised with a birthday cake . Although the both of us already knew it , but still we appreciate . The both of us were just afraid that they would find ways to disturb us , that's why we went to take alook :/ We didnt manage to make our wishes before we blew the candles , so we went to the field instead . I starts to worry about myself , afraid of my back injury (slip disc) . My ankle & back hurts alot now )':

A very big thankyou to my 3 lovely princess(s) & kaii for the birthday present ! (: ♥
Chiewchin , Kevyn , Kaii , Jethro & Jason for the birthday cake ! (: ♥
& thankyou kevyn sweetie for the orea cheesecake that she made on her own ! (: ♥

My head is spining ! -.-

2009-07-19T22:51:00.007+08:00

Monday : Combine training at bishan campus .
Tuesday : Simei training at bedok .
Wednesday : Went down temasek poly to see match .
Thursday : Combine training at bishan campus .
Friday : Pol-ite match against SP !
Saturday : Day out with princess(s) & kaii (bitch outing) :/

Friday ; The girls came over to my place for a nap & dinner before heading to temasek poly for match . Performance for that match = super cui . I hope to be on form for tomorrow's match !
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Stupid , i accidentally deleted the previous post ! Very very angry can ?

Had a mini birthday celebration for sinwei & i in advance . Met kaii first then followed by princess(s) . Walked around & then headed to bugis for steamboat in the late evening . Food there are really terrible . Extra ingredient siol = Baby cockroach's shit (maybe) . I saw it crawling on to the raw meat , perhaps it may already shitted in the plate of food that we took . But afterall , i enjoyed . Cause every second with them , there will always be laughter ! (: ♥

2009-07-13T23:31:00.003+08:00

Dead tired . In fact , tired of everything .

Today's sucha bad day , ruined by idiots . Hah ! I'm joking :/
Training today , damn cui . Training tomorrow again . Cant wait , wanna play well :DD

2009-07-11T16:29:00.004+08:00

School , school & school . Lesson had been really boring till we fell asleep in class . Headed back for simei's training at bedok on thursday evening . I had fun (: School starts at 8am the very next day , heehee . I managed to wake up early & reach on time , because of that ban mian's deal we made .

Yesterday : Waited for time to pass after lessons ended . & movie @ amk .

2009-07-06T20:56:00.005+08:00

Back to schoollllllllllllllllll !

I'm super happy today , because princess(s) made my day . Ever since i met them this morning at the bus-stop , i've been laughing like an idiot . & when we're in school numbers of funny scene happened . Really damn funny , i swear :D (Hor , kevyn ?) . I know this module is short . Just 2more months left , i really hope time would slow down . Cause i dont wish to make new friends . I want to spend every single day with my princess(s) , like how we never gets tired of laughing .

I think subject that we are studying are more interesting than the first module . I like ! But i hate my timetable . Because i need to wake up early almost everyday ): Like 8am lesson start , okay ?! But its okay , for the sake of higher nitec i will bare with it . Cause i want to higher nitec so badly . & i said before , i'm going to work hard & i mean it . But still i'm afraid of not being able to sleep at night . Hahah ! That's what happened last night :O

2009-07-05T14:28:00.009+08:00

( I'm a big fans of mickey mouse ! )

I dont know what happen to blogger , i've got difficulty uploading pictures . Thanks to photobucket . See ! The picture big hor ?! I tried adjusting afew times & its still so big .

I spent almost half the day doing my project , till now i'm still stuck at the fourth slide . I dont feel like doing it already . Because i dont know what shit to write . While browsing through those photo album , i found lots of childhood photos . Hahah ! I know the picture above ; i looks like cheena .
Small eyes & reddish lips instead of reddish/rosy cheeks . (*HAHAHAHAHAHA ! )

How fast ? A month had passed . Had been complaining holidays are rather boring . & today's the last day of holiday , back to school tomorrow . Happy or what ? Thought of trimming my fringe in the afternoon , but i'm just too lazy to get myself out of the house . Probably some other days :/